sad sad week

i joke, i smile and i lame with everyone. deep inside...and am feeling very unhappy.

today, my mood is very very bad. or should i say, have been feeling down for the pass few days. maybe its becuase of my studies that is affecting my mood so much.

Monday, i have my physics test. then got back the paper on wednesday. despite of the effort that i put in to study for the test, i only manage to scrape thru' it. where does the problem lies?

then on the very same day that we i got back my paper, i got another maths test. its on polar coordinate, a futher maths chapter. again, i got study for the test but then....i juz forget everything during the test itself. in the end, my graph went haywire. gonna fail this test again.

then today friday, i have another test AGAIN. chemistry. luckily the teacher forgot about the test. she wasted my time studying for the test when i could actually done my homework which is to hand in today. in the end, i have to keep rushing to complete my homework so as to hand in today. every single second i have must also make use of it fully.

suddenly, i got really piss off by kng. kng, if u are reading tis, i juz wanna tell u dat i am going to be very frank here. if u are going to get angry over it, then i have nothing to say. i think that being friends, we should be able to accept each other's comment and change for the better.

anyway, this is what happend that made mi so pissed off. kng msg, i believe, to everyone this morning asking if we are going out tml anot. i did not feel like replying to the msg but only have done so very reluctantly when i say the two words "pls cfm". u know y i don't feel like replying? cos i have already said dunno how many times that i will not be free before new year cos i have to help my mum with the springcleaning. again and again, i have repeated dunno for how many times liao. and dat day, susu also said that u all can go ahead with any plans without mi. why do you still have to keep asking the same question? it is irritating to give the same ans again and again.

well then, i replied the msg and i tot its going to be the end. fullstop. no, i was wrong. kng replied again and ask what about monday or tue evening. well kng, i think u got to use your brain to think sometimes. tuesday is the new year eve. who would be free to come out on that night? most of us will be at home having our reunion dinner with our own family. and for monday, we are stilling having school. and as u all know, i am home so late everyday. how would i have the time to meet on a weekday when i do not even have the time to spare on a weekend.

it wunt kill mi to confirm with u for so MANY times. but i juz wanna say that it is irritating to say the same things for so many times. it can spoil my mood.

anyway, new year is coming. Hopefully i can get a break and feel much better during new year!

Happy New Year to C7! -orange