orange...

part of this entry is in response to the previous entry. well, i do agree that it is my fault for not being able to make time to meet up with c7 before new year for a reunion dinner. for me, the period beofre new year is always very busy. y? cos i have to tackle between school work and helping my mum with the springclean for the chinese new year. i had already stated right at the beginning when someone suggest about meeting up for a reunion dinner dat i would have to help my mum. dat was y i got piss off when u keep asking and asking. i am those impatient type who cant stand ppl who keep repeating themselves. i do not do dat to you only but to whoever dat is like dat.

yes, i said that being frineds should be frank. thank you for telling mi what u are unhappy about mi. at least i know in wat way i had made ppl ard mi unhappy and i can try to change for the better so that i will not make ppl feel irritated. maybe u are not the only one being pissed off during the two event that u stated. others might also had got pissed off but they din say it out.

certain things that i want to clarify. i seriously, badly dun like black. that is why i strongly oppose to all black t-shirt. come my hse and see if u dun believe. i only have 2 black tee and the two are school tee. kranji band tee and yj sabah expedition tee. can say i very 'pang dang' or wat but i juz dun like to wear black. i am ok with white tee but it is juz dat we could not find any white tee dat is appealing to us.

regarding the kbox, well, i think that one is my first time, and also my last time. so u wunt get irritated by me in kbox ever again. or maybe, no one in c7 will get irritated by mi ever again in kbox if i happen to make anyone else irritated.

no one is perfect in this world. that is always ought to be something that we do not like about each other. most of the time, we cant see our own mistakes and need someone to tell us.

ever since i had enter a jc, i dun know y but i juz starts to have very low confidence about myself. i believe think that everyone around mi is much more better than mi. i think that i am an 'extra' to everyone. i am scared to make friends because i am scared that ppl around mi finds mi irritating. most of the time, i always ask myself if i had made ppl unhappy but i could not find any answer because i dun know. even for c7, i oso wonder how many times had i made u all feel 'fan gan' over mi. i wonders but i cant get any ans....

this is something deep in my heart and u all are the first to know how i feel most of the time when i mix with ppl...

to c7, if i have, in any way, made u all feel irritated about mi, pls tell mi cos i really want an answer...

orange